eidame thn tainia kai eklapsa kai eniosa lonely paranoid no hope
i thought for my dad some moment after hour only person that felt soothing what if i had nobody
where are friends
why is so difficult to connect
niwthw
auth h tupsisa pthele n vgei sth tv den p paranoise ap ta xapia she..
epatha trelo trigger skeftomoun to nikita k ola
kai den jero an nikaei to trigger skeftomoun toi tha pethano moni? h kapos etsi ala pio sumvatika
skefthka to panic attack ths elinas
auto p me pnigei
skeftika oti to xe pathei spiti t spurou tr
skeftoomai tous anthropous
skeftomai oti h zoh m den exei nohma skeftomai pos
o nikitas eipe no meaning
skeftika to bad trip m otan thn evlepa to pos htan kai den mporo na to
epejergasto
skeftomai oti tha katalijo na xo trigger sta panta
se kapia fash skefthka emena mikrh piso apo th porta t mpaniou na akoumpao ta gonata m na fovame to xristo kai na skeftome oti isos ola auta na einai psemmata
h mama oloi na paizountheatro kai na me se ena matrix , h tou theou kataskeuasma
san tpt na mhn einai alithino
mporei na nai demones p exoun metamfiestei kai kanoun pos einai autoi
h oti ola mporei na nai oneiro
k eixa frikarei
kai meta stamatisa na to skeftomai .
den antexw all ona niwthw etsi
xriazomai voithia
xriazomai kapoion ..
sugnwmh
den jerw an apla agnow ola auta ta triggers ta traumata kai afou uparxoun mesa m tote mporei pote na mhn eimai xaroumenh an den ta liso tha luthoun tha gnorisoume thn agaph
uparxei ?
jereis
den jerw tpt kai auto me frikarei
frikarw toso polu
makari na mporousa na
ξερω οτι αν παθω κριση πανικου η αν τρελαθω δεν θα ναι κανεις εκει για μενα
και ξερω πως ανμινω λογικη
παρουσα αν καταφερω να πιανομαι απ το νημα τησ ζωησ
αν δεν φυγω απο το ποταμι
εχω πιο πολλεσ πιθανοττηεσ να βρω ενα μεροσ καποιον
ισωσ καποιουσ
πρεπει να συνεχισω να ψαχνω
νιωθω οτι αν τα παρατησω
εκει περα υπαρχει μονο σκοταδι και το τιποτα
αυτο το συναισθημα
αυτα τα συναισθηματα
δεν ξερω γτ υπαρχουν
i just think that nobody will ever undrestand my darkness
i thought dimosthenis because undrestands part of me is how i feel but he doesnt undrestand nothing
he
idk
even if he does he just wanna stay away from me
aand i undrestand that..
i dont blame that
i just think there is sb for me
that can see this darkness this pain actually and not be scared and see my light to o
i need somebody that is courageous enough that is ready for that that he is not afraid of me ...
